The Making of Me (Mica)

 Integrity is something that I became aware of in my twenties as I began to study the gospel and gain a testimony.  I wanted that sense of peace that I knew would only come from living an honest life.  That decision has been an incredible blessing.  It has taken a lot of work. I grew up afraid of harsh punishments and consequences for mistakes.  As a result, I discovered that if I just didn't say anything or if I lied, things would go smoother.  Lying and rationalization became a tool of survival.  As I learned about my Savior and began to partake of his atonement, I learned that I did not need this tool.  That in fact, it was a harmful tool that caused me deep pain, stunted my opportunities,  kept me from real relationships and created heavy anxiety.  Almost fifteen years later, I am amazed at the peace living a life of integrity brings.  We read a talk by Sheri Dew on integrity this week where she says, "..t rust, which can onl...

We had the assignment this week of reading or watching a lecture given by Randy Pausch at Carnegie Melon called “The Last Lecture”.    What made this such a special speech was that at the beginning of the lecture, Randy Pausch shared with the audience that in his case this most like would be his last lecture.   He had cancer and knew that he had months to live.   With this perspective, he shared those lessons and experiences that had shaped and enriched his life.   He began by sharing his childhood dreams and how having those dreams gave his life direction and propelled him forward.   His dreams were as simple as winning stuffed animals at a fair to harder goals of being in zero gravity.   He outlined how having these dreams helped him in pursuing opportunities even when he would seemingly hit a brick wall.   The lecture was inspiring.   How amazing would it be to be able to give the last lecture of your life and know that you have acco...

Welcome to my Q- That is what my husband calls his journal and I'm excited to start my own. I hope that through writing down my thought and experiences I will become more focused in my goals and seeing which step I need to take next.  This will be the making of me. This is where I am currently.  My name is Micaela Webb.  I also go by Mica pronounced Meeka.  I am a daughter of God.  I didn't always know this or understand what this meant.  I was blessed to discover my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ when I was twenty-one. That moment began everything for me.  That moment showed me my potential and was a catalyst for change in my life.  I began to examine my life and choose which habits to let go of and which habits to begin developing.  It has been brutal and so rewarding. Through this process I have come to have a knowledge of who Jesus Christ is.  I know that he knows us each personally and perfectly and guides us to becomi...